Week 63: "I Just Realized, You're All Hermanas, So I Better Take This [Photo] in Spanish!"

1) What is the sickest you have been while on the mission? At USU? (Mom note: Her brother was just diagnosed with Mono this weekend!)
2) Have you ever had to use your medical insurance while you were away from home? Did you have any problems trying to use it?
3) How cold has it been there lately?  Any big storms?
4) How are your investigators progressing?  Baptisms still on target?

1. Um, I think the most sick I've been is honestly just a cold...just got over one this week (thank you, Airborne) and I got one last winter when I was with my trainer. But I really think that's it...probably because Heavenly Father knows I'm a baby and can't handle anything more than that. As for at USU, I think probably the same. I suppose I don't really get sick all that often... Usually though what happens when I get sick is I have a stuffy nose for weeks on end and I just can't seem to get over it. Somehow this week though I managed to get rid of all symptoms basically in about a week. Probably because I drank so much orange juice and took Airborne. Hallelujah.
2. I don't think so, actually. So no, no problems. haha
3. It's actually been really nice and fresh here. Yesterday it was about 70 degrees. Today it's a bit rainy so it's a little cooler, but I haven't even had to wear my big coat yet, let alone the snow boots. We heard once upon a time that we weren't going to get snow until after Christmas, but we've since heard that we'll have snow in December most likely. But I honestly don't know. So far it's been really nice. Supposedly it's supposed to be a somewhat mild winter. We'll see how long that lasts though. Just looked at the weather (approved app) and it's supposed to be in the 50s for a few days then in the 30s so I guess the cold is on its way. Brr. I never did like the cold, but at least there's no snow still. (I had to think SO hard to come up with the word "still"; it's been replaced by the Spanish equivalent in my brain...)
4. Well, Jose and Ida are just the most fantastic people of all time. For real. I mean, where do I even begin? So last week they came to church for Sacrament Meeting and then had to go. We were able to teach them on Wednesday and Friday and Saturday. It was awesome. They have such a sincere desire to do God's will and they're beginning to believe in and feel the power of prayer. We did find out about a few obstacles to get over but we have faith and we know they have faith. Ida keeps all of her commitments and then does some extra studying on the side. Jose is beginning to understand how to pray in order to receive answers and then be able to recognize them. I feel like they're my children, but at the same time I feel like they're my parents. It's so great. So we had invited them to come to a baptism this Saturday and Ida told us she had a vendor fair and they weren't sure they'd be able to make it. We gave them the address anyway and told them we'd pray really hard--and then asked about ten of the members and some missionaries to also pray--that 1) Ida would sell all her Tupperware, 2) the vendor fair would end a little early [or that they'd be able to close up a little early] and 3) that she would find someone to go in her place on Sunday [that way she could go to church]. Well, let me tell you something: PRAYER WORKS. I know Heavenly Father answers prayers, even if it's not exactly how we think He will. Because Ida actually didn't sell very much at all; she said it was pretty slow all day. However, the fair ended up being done at 3 instead of at 4 (the baptism was at 4:30 and the fair was in Rockford, about a 30 minute drive away), and she found someone to take her place Sunday! So they came to the baptism (oh, and there were technical difficulties with the font so the service was delayed for about half an hour) and then afterwards we taught them the Word of Wisdom because they have to be living that for two weeks before they're baptized and last Saturday was exactly two weeks before their baptism and then they came to church yesterday and stayed for all three hours. Oh, and yesterday was the Primary program and they loved it! Oh man. I just love this couple. Also, at the baptism, we had some food afterwards and we'd just about run out of plates so Jose and Ida shared one and Hermana Henricksen and I shared one. When the two of us sat down with Jose and Ida, Jose passed me a napkin and I said "Oh thanks, I didn't even think of that!" And he goes "Well, I always take care of my daughters." Aww.... (: I think a tear may have welled up in my eye. I just love these two SO MUCH. There really aren't words to describe it. They're just amazing. I know we can overcome these obstacles because we have faith, they have faith, and our God is mighty to save (Alma 34:18; 2 Nephi 31:19).

So that's basically the main highlight of this week. I'm not sure what else to say. Good news is that I've stayed committed to writing in my journal nightly so I WILL keep up and then everything I forget to tell you will at least be written down so that we may all profit thereby. (haha) But anywho, here's a brief summary of this week:

Monday: We went by a less active family who live out in the boonies, and it was in the evening and mind you, it gets dark at about 5:30. But so we went by and when we pulled up there was someone (we think) in the truck in the driveway but we went up to the door anyway. We could hear the kids yelling inside but no one ever answered. So we went back to the driveway (on the side of the house) and the lights on the truck were off now. So we wrote a note by the light of the lamp on the side of the house and the whole time we could hear them talking, looking through the windows in the garage door (or something like that) and I distinctly heard them say "They're still here..!" I don't know who they thought we were but boy was it funny. haha Maybe it's just me but I'd much rather have the missionaries knocking at my door at 7:30 than anyone else....haha but yeah. I guess we're really intimidating or something.

Tuesday: We were driving up Lincoln Hwy and I was watching people walking outside (since I am the official co-driver) and I saw a lady that I thought was our investigator so I stared until we'd past and then I stared some more and finally I was convinced it was her so we turned and parked on a street, prayed and started walking towards this woman. And it was her! Her name is Irma and she is so great. She's had a lot of bad experiences with people that have left her without much trust in the general population but she likes us (now). We walked with her back to her house, just listening to her really. She commented about how much we laugh. Let me tell you, it's because of the Gospel of Jesus Christ. Only true things like that make you as happy as us. Anyway, we get to her house and she tells us she's going to finish raking leaves and we practically beg her to let us help her and she concedes. Well, I hardly ever got to rake leaves growing up because there aren't many trees at my house so it was lots of fun! However, in the process I managed to step in some poop. Yes, poop. I believe of the cat variety. Well, we then had to walk quickly back to our car because we had an appointment with an investigator. But I had poop on my boot! I couldn't just track poop into her home! (It's always immaculate, plus that's just not cool period.) So we get to the car and it's about dusk (5 pm, you know) and I can't see very well what I'm doing, but I"m trying to scrape it off with dried leaves. Well, the problem with dried leaves is that aren't very sturdy so it basically just crumbles and now it's on my hand! Well, we begin driving and it begins to smell. So I roll the window down and stick my arm out. By the time we've arrived my arm is FROZEN I tell you. But hey, at least it doesn't smell in the car. While Hna ran up to a member's home to pick something up to take to our investigator with whom we have an appointment, I sat in the car with the door open, trying to get poop off. What did I use? Well I happened to have eaten a banana earlier that day and had nowhere to put the peel so I was using that, plus some napkins we had in the car (for when we check oil levels on Mondays) and some water in a water bottle. Well it sort of worked and it was mostly off. When we got to our appointment finally I asked to use the bathroom and I wiped off a bit more with hand sanitizer. So now at this point my boot smells like a combination of cat poop, banana, and cherry blossom. Our investigator's dog sniffed at my shoe for a little longer than normal. But hey, it was good. haha all in a days work, right?

Wednesday: We visited a sister in the ward who has been having a bit of a rough time lately. We weren't planning on being fed but she fed us anyway. (We had pork chops--in the oven, they were more delicious that I remember pork chops being--and mashed potatoes--she used that Mesquite steak seasoning in the potatoes and it was also delicious--and Brussel sprouts. Oh boy do I love Brussel sprouts. I don't know why but boy are they tasty. Just saying. Also, she had a poster on the wall and it was intriguing. I knew it must have something to do with a video game but didn't know what so I asked her about it. Come to find out it was something with League of Legends. Wow.... I haven't heard that phrase for eons! Just kidding, more like slightly over a year. But it feels like eons. It was just so weird to contemplate that again because I haven't even thought about video games for months. Wow. It made me realize just how much a person can change simply by putting one's mind to it. I know I've had the Lord's help in becoming as focused as I am, and I am truly grateful for that.

Thursday: We had zone conference! Wow. It was awesome. And if I'm being completely honest, the first reason for that is because our zone leaders brought us cake and we ate it. It was divine. haha. But it was also awesome because we learned a lot. Plus, I finally had another interview with President. Man, I love President Griffin. He truly is inspired. I know he is so in tune with the Spirit because he was reading between the lines of my asked question and helped me know what I needed to know. I know he is a man called of God to preside over this mission. He receives revelation for all people residing in these geographic boundaries, as far as missionary work is concerned. And just as we are blessed for following the prophet, Thomas S. Monson, I know we are blessed by following the counsel of Gilbert M. Griffin. I love him and his wife and I am so so grateful for what they teach and what they have taught already.

Friday: So we were doing our plans and no one was letting us in so we had about 30 mins left until the next hour with nothing to do. So we prayed and both felt we should go by Ida and Jose. So we drive across town (takes about 8 minutes) to the neighboring "village" and drop by. And of course they let us in because they're only two of the greatest people on earth. And we had a fantastic lesson. We found out a bit more of Ida's concerns and helped them to gain a little more confidence in themselves and in the Gospel. I know these two are searching for what we are trying to give them, and they are so so so close. They're amazing. And I know Heavenly Father will guide us if we will only ask.

Saturday: we had breakfast with a member and when we got there she tells us she invited our investigator! (they're basically best friends) so that was super cool! Both of these two sweet sisters are going through almost unbearable trials and I think it's not by coincidence that they've met and become good friends. Although they have such different circumstances, I know they will be able to support and lift one another as they continue to seek the Lord first. I am so grateful for the stability of my own family and the health of my loved ones. It's not something you always realize that you're grateful for until it no longer exists or you get up close and personal with someone else's situation. I know I am blessed beyond measure and surely I do not merit the great blessings that I've been given. But I know I will continue to work to be worthy of the blessings I already have and to help others receive the same joy and happiness that my family and I enjoy. I am so blessed to have been born to parents who made sacred covenants between themselves and the Lord and who have worked to keep those covenants throughout their lives. I am so grateful for their example. I hope you both know how much I love you and admire you, even if I don't always express it. I'm still not perfect so I'm working on that part.

Sunday: Well about three months ago our ward mission leader gave us a referral (Tony) of a friend of his who was reading the Book of Mormon of his own volition. We went by with this member to try to find him and got no answer. We went by later and met the brother of this referral who told us Tony didn't live there anymore. Our member then directed us to Tony's other brother to look for more information. We went by and met a woman who was previously meeting with the missionaries (I'd met her once before actually) and she told us to try a house on the corner of a street named Irene, with a poodle almost always on the car in the living room window. So we did. We probably tried that house about 3 times and no one ever answered. And we never ever saw a poodle. So we went back to this woman and she told us it was the second door down in the apartment building on the corner. So we tried the second door and met a man whose name wasn't Tony and he didn't know of anyone named Tony. We tried the first door and they had a giant dog--not Tony. Well, Saturday we went back and decided to try all the other doors on that corner because we just wanted to find Tony. And the very first door we knocked was answered by a young woman who said her dad was Tony. Uh, what?! However, he was asleep so she said to come back the next day before 2. So we did. And we found Tony! Oh my goodness! It was harder that finding Waldo but we finally did it. And he's awesome! He asked us where the church building was and said he'd come and also let us set up an appointment to come teach him. Oh boy. I'm excited. He told us he began reading the Book of Mormon out of curiosity and he just wants to finish it so he can know everything. haha by all means, keep reading! It was truly a miracle. (Also, it did turn out to be a second door, just coming from the direction not of the corner...)

I had plenty of time today so this should be long enough for the next month or so right? haha (maybe I'm kidding.)

I know the Gospel is true and I know there is nothing that could make a person happier than the restored Gospel of Jesus Christ. As I learned at zone conference from a Hindu-converted-Mormon, Elder Murchison: Hinduism is based on the experience of the four blind men (in the story of the 4 Blind Men and the Elephant) but the restored Gospel of Jesus Christ is based on the experience of the man who saw the whole elephant. There is nothing truer on the earth, that I know. How do I know? Because I read the Book of Mormon and I prayed and I fasted and I asked God, with the intent to act according to the answer. I invite you all to find out for yourselves if this truly is true. If it isn't, well then you've knocked one more religion out of the running. But if it is, then you know what you need to do. I promise you that if you will ask with a sincere heart and real intent, having faith in Christ, by the power of the Holy Ghost you too can come to know that this is the Church of Jesus Christ, reestablished on the earth once more so that all of the children of God may be benefited and one day inherit eternal life.

Love, Hermana DeBuck

Fotos:
1. #thatawkwardmoment when auto-correct turns your name into something two times longer and actually more complicated.

2. Some of my favorite hermanas at zone conference (from left to right: Hermana Taylor, H. Dahle, H. Neff, H. LaBonte, H. Griffin, H. Henricksen, and yours truly.)

Week 62: Why Don't You Use Lowry's? Because My Soul Delighteth in Plain Things. Thanks, Nephi!

5 Questions:
1) Did you ever take tests/study at USU on Sundays?  Did that help/hurt you?
2) Now that you know you are aren't being transferred out of Rochelle this round, when is the next transfer date?
3) Has your mission received many more Spanish speaking missionaries this fall?  Do you get Spanish speaking elders?
4) Did you get the mail I send directly to Sister W's home?
5) Does the mission provide bedding (blankets, quilts, etc) for missionaries there?

1. Tests, no. Those were always in class, during the week. Studying, I don't think so. I honestly believe and know to be true what we teach our investigators: Sunday is the Sabbath day in this dispensation and we are to sanctify and honor it. It is the Lord's day, and how we treat it is a sign to God, showing how we truly feel about Him. How I personally decide if something is alright to do on the Sabbath, I ask myself if I would do it if the Savior were here with me. Would I wash the dishes? Yes, because cleanliness is next to godliness. Would I deep clean the house? No, that can wait because the house is clean enough. That is simply doctrine according to Hermana DeBuck (the dishes example) but if you'd like more clarification, please see Elder Nelson's talk from the April 2015 General Conference. He explains it a lot better than I can.
2. The next transfer is the 8th of December. So I have two and a half transfers left as a missionary. Approximately 14-15 weeks. That is crazy. Boy does the time fly. And I honestly don't want it to end. There is nothing better than bringing souls unto Christ 24/7. But a release as a full time missionary is simply a call to be a life long missionary. (: So that makes it a little better.
3. I believe we've gotten a few more, not a whole ton. But some. I would say 2-6 every transfer cycle. Maybe. Don't quote me on that. And yes, we have Spanish speaking Elders. There are two currently serving in my first area, down in Bloomington-Normal.
4. I think so....? Not sure though. How long ago was that?
5. Yes and no? I know in my first apartment we had a bunch of blanket already and in my second area we found a giant blanket in a closet. The house here in Rochelle has a bunch of blankets but I believe they actually belong to the house, not the mission. The other places I think they were just leftovers from missionaries who didn't take them with them.

Well, I have some good news everyone: WE HAD INVESTIGATORS COME TO CHURCH!!!!!!!

I don't think caps lock and any number of exclamation points can even begin to describe how happy we were. We wanted to cry and to scream and to pass out all at the same time. Yesterday was probably one of the top five Sundays of my entire life. But first, some background information...

On Wednesday, we taught one of our on date investigators, Ida. She is on date for 28 November and we were able to teach her at a members' home with two of the greatest people ever, Brother and Sister Springer. We ended up having about 25 minutes to teach (because we had to leave then to be on time to exchanges in Elgin). We had asked our members the day before to study in Preach My Gospel, lesson two: the Plan of Salvation. We say a prayer and begin the lesson. Brother S starts us off and finishes us off. We spoke very little yet the Spirit was so strong. That right there is the importance of members. It was a fairly brief overview of God's plan for His children, but I know it was what she needed. We then asked if she'd prayed about being baptized on the 28th of this month and she said yes. We asked how she felt about it and she said good, smiling. I know this woman is so prepared and so ready. We then invited her to church, telling her she has to come every week between now and the 28th in order to be baptized then. Her face fell slightly, saying she had work that day. We promised that if she worked for it and we all had faith, God would provide a way.

On Friday, we were at the church doing weekly planning (exchanges on Thursday and not enough time Wednesday) when in walks a young boy, maybe ten years old, and he asks us what time services are on Sundays. We tell him ten o' clock and he walks out. Then he walks back in and asks what time they're at in Spanish, and we explain it's the same time but we translate what's said. Then he leaves. There wasn't even enough time for us to consider finding more information. We were just in shock. It was crazy and we thought to ourselves, "hey, maybe we'll have some random people we've never met at church this week" and then we went on with our week.

Fast forward to Sunday. We were talking with a member before the meeting began and in walks the young boy we met Friday. Followed by six more Latinos whom we had never met before. Can you say miracle? Because I sure can! It was truly amazing. We met all of them and got them all set up with stuff for translation. Then, later, while we are singing the sacramental hymn, in walk Jose and Ida, our couple on date. The second we saw them, I just wanted to cry and praise God. I know He is so so so merciful to His children. He truly loves His kids. And I know it has very little to do with us. The only factor we play in miracles like these is our obedience. I know because we have been repenting daily and seeking the Spirit, constantly doing our best to be our best, we were rewarded abundantly. And if I had to narrow it down to just one reason why we finally had people at church, well I don't know that I could. I think it's partly because I have been very studious in writing in my journal nightly, which is something I've been repenting of for quite some time. And I think it's partly because I've finally learned how to truly exercise faith, do the best I can, and then leave it in the Lord's hands, believing that it will all work out in the end.

This week was simply amazing. Last Sunday was fast Sunday and it was also the first of November. We were invited by our zone leaders to fast about our mission vision: 1000 baptisms in one year, which works out to be one baptism per companionship per month. Well, I fasted about it and I honestly felt like I didn't receive an answer. But now, looking back on the week, the answer was manifested in our desire and our attitude and our faith.

See, faith has always been a hard concept for me. I'm a logical thinker and faith just doesn't make sense, logically speaking. So I've been studying it quite a bit and I've learned some interesting things.
The phrase "exercise faith" really just means "working towards a worthy, unseen goal". So when we exercise our faith, we are working towards a good goal, inspired and confirmed by the Spirit, even though we don't know how it's going to be achieved. We trust in God enough to work as hard and as smart as we can, and then we give it to Him.

I recently studied Alma chapter 32 in the Book of Mormon. The prophet Alma, compared the word of God to a seed. When we first hear the word of God, we don't know if it is good or not. So how do we find out? He tells us that first we must "awake and arouse" our faculties, to "experiment" upon the word, "exercise a PARTICLE of faith", "desire to believe" and then "let this desire work in [us]" until we can "give place for a portion" of the word--or try living what the word says. When we give place for a portion of the word, when we begin living the principles we are learning, that is how we plant the seed. Then, as we continue to nourish the seed, we continue to live those principles, and we do not "cast it out" by our unbelief, it will begin to swell, to enlarge our souls, to enlighten our understanding, and to be delicious to us. We will see the fruits of living those principles and we will begin to know that they are true, good principles. By exercising our faith, by trying those principles out in our lives, that is how we learn if it is a true, good seed--if the word is actually the word of God. However, at this point, our knowledge isn't perfect. Our faith has been strengthened yes, we are more inclined to believe, but we still don't know perfectly. Eventually, as we continue to nurture that seed, we may come to a perfect knowledge--of that thing. When we get to this point, our faith is dormant because we know without a doubt that the word is good and true.

And this, my friends, is where I am at when it comes to many Gospel principles. I used to think I didn't have faith. But I learned this week that that thought is completely and utterly false. That thought comes from Satan, who would have us doubt our faith before we doubt our doubts. But now I know that I truly do have faith. But because I have seen the fruits of living the restored Gospel of Jesus Christ, my faith in dormant in many ways. But there are some principles that I must continue to exercise faith for my knowledge is not perfect.

Which is what Alma tells us about next; he tells us that we must not "lay aside [our] faith". Friends and family I plead with you: do not lay aside your faith. If you have once tasted the joy of the everlasting Gospel, I would ask, can you feel so now? (Alma 5:26) Come unto Christ and be partakers of the fruit of the tree of life (1 Nephi 8:11-12). I know that God is your Heavenly Father and He loves you with an infinite love. Neither you nor I can comprehend it, but I know it's real. His work and His glory--His eternal goal--is to bring to pass YOUR immortality and eternal life (Moses 1:39). He has not given up on your nor will He ever give up on you.

I know Jesus Christ is the Son of God. He lives. He guides His Church through living prophets and apostles. I am a disciple of Jesus Christ, the Son of the Living God. He has called me to this holy calling, this work of salvation. No unhallowed hand can stop the work from progressing. Persecutions may rage, mobs may combine, calumny may defame, but the truth of God will go forth boldly, nobly and independent until it has penetrated every continent and sounded in every ear, and the Great Jehovah shall say the work is done (see History of the Church).

Love,
Tu Hija y Amiga,
Hermana DeBuck


Fotos:
1. So frequently I make Hermana Henricksen tell me a story in Spanish (to practice speaking and conjugating and making sense) but yesterday she made me, so I told her about how we always ate Cow Tales when we got a car wash. So today we bought cow tales and then ate them in the car wash!

2. Remember those disgusting bugs I told you about? Well, last night we found TWO more! The first one was enormous, which is probably why he was dead the next morning: he breathed all his allotment of air.

 

3. The other one was a lot smaller so that's probably why he wasn't dead yet. But now he's somewhere in the wilderness far from our house so who knows how he's doing.

 

Week 61: It'll Take A Bull to Get Me In a Fight, But It'll Take a Herd To Get Me Out

5 Questions:
1) How soon are the baptisms you've got scheduled?
2) Do you have a minute that you could write a note to Sister Brytni Butler? 
3) How are things going with your companion?
4) Do you hear from your brother? I can't tell you what it means to me that you two are helping each other, separate from me & dad.
5) Any suggestions for Christmas gifts? Some requests have already been asked.

1. We have two for 28 November. Their names are Jose and Ida--they're a couple. And we have one for 5 December. Her name is Gloria.
2. Yes, I will/did.
3. So well that we're basically the same person....not even joking. The other day we were reciting our mission statement and we both yawned in the middle--at the exact same time. And then we were giggling/laughing and we barely made it through the rest. haha it's a really good companionship. We're planning on Hermana Henricksen killing me so that'll be great. haha
4. Yes, off and on. If I write him he usually responds. I try to write weekly but sometimes it doesn't happen. AT least every two weeks though. He's doing alright.
5. Uh, ask me next week..

Well, this week was good, if crazy. I can't say why but just know that I'm doing well and we are working hard here in Rochelle. I truly do love it here. I think I'd like to die here (Alma 17:23).

The Gospel is true and it truly blesses lives more than anything else. What we do as missionaries is invite all to bring the truths they already treasure and see if we cannot add more. I know we can and we will, because this is the restored Gospel of Jesus Christ. This is the Church of Jesus Christ, and He is at its head. He directs His Church through His prophet Thomas S. Monson today, and He restored His Church through the prophet Joseph Smith in the year 1830, bringing back precious truths that had been lost after His death and the death of His apostles. The Book of Mormon is literally another testament of Jesus Christ and will bring a man closer to God than any other means will. I know all of this is true because I prayed and asked God if it was. And He told me, by the power of the Holy Ghost, that it is. No one can take that knowledge away from me, and only God can give it. I invite you all to ask, either for the first time or the hundredth time, if God still speaks to His children through a prophet on the earth today, and then listen.

Love, Hermana DeBuck

Fotos:
1. One of the many finely dressed geese in Illinois, for your enjoyment.

2-3. Found some clothes in a closet in our house and so I tried some on... (: (Some things just never change...)

Bonus photo was sent by the Bishop's wife (their landlord) after the girls had haircuts and ice cream with her today for P-Day:

 

Week 60: "Wait, You're Not Latina?!" (DREAMS DO COME TRUE!)

Sorry this week is going to be just photos really. But hey, good news is that I get to stay in Rochelle! Who'd've thunk it? Not me. I was certain I was leaving and tears were shed in prayer because I was so distraught. But Heavenly Father is so good to me and I get six more weeks (at least) in this blessed place and we are going to have two baptisms! We are so excited for the people we are working with; now we just have to sacrifice so that they will come to church. And I am willing to do everything it takes! The Gospel is true and families truly CAN be together forever--if we comply with the will of God and make and keep sacred covenants.

Love, Hermana DeBuck

Fotos:
1. The Elders wanted to take a picture with us on Sunday before the one leaves....this is the result. Wow, aren't we awkward...

2. We met this sweet Lutheran lady who totally opened up when we asked her about her car! Man, it is so sweet. It's a 61 Chevy Impala. And she let me take pictures(:

3. One of our investigators gave us some salsa and it has five different peppers in it... I thought I'd die but man it was SO good! Loved it. Took it to the branch chili cook off and it was a hit too--and then that investigator came and it was a little awkward but we just rolled with it! (:

4. Awkward district photo but I suppose this sums us up. hahaha #missionarylife to the T...

Week 59: If I Had a Woman Like You in My Life Telling Me That Everyday, I Really Could Change!

5 Questions:
1) How often do you get to have a General Authority in your mission?  Have you been able to meet together and learn from him?
2) Did the winter get there before you got the clothes?  I couldn't tell how close you were to the BIG cold front that dove down from Canada into IL.
3) Have you had any change with any of the investigators you are working with?  are they coming to church?  Is that the biggest issue most have to progress?
4) When have you felt ht Spirit the strongest on your mission?
5) What strengthens your faith when you feel down?  You generally don't SOUND down but I'm sure it happens.  What do you do when it does?

1. I believe we have a whole mission conference every six months and a general authority (a member of the quorum of the seventh or a member the quorum of the twelve) comes. They'll usually do a mission tour too, I believe, though I'm not sure exactly what that entails. I personally haven't had the chance to sit down one-on-one with one of these divinely appointed men, but I know other missionaries have. But part of what happens is we'll have zone conferences so he and his wife will teach whatever they are inspired to teach in each of the zone conferences, so we do get to learn from them. It's always very inspiring and revelatory.
2. Nah, it's not that bad. I've still got a trench coat I've been wearing, plus one of our members made us those cute headband ear warmer things so I'm doing great! It was a tad chilly, but we survived. I'll be fine for at least a week without anything else.
3. Not particularly. Unfortunately, no one we're teaching is coming to church or has come to church since I got here...but we're working toward it. That is the biggest problem we have in this area, but again, we are working on it. Haha poco a poco. I will talk a bit more specifically about one of our investigators a little later in this email though... 
4. Oh wow. That is hard to say. The first issue here is recognizing how the spirit feels. Which I am learning to do and I think I've gotten a lot better than since before my mission. But then the next issue is deciding what kind of prompting is the strongest. Because sometimes it's really strong because the Spirit is warnings us about something, other times it's really strong because we are testifying of restored truths, other times it's because the spirit is trying to get me to do something I don't want to do. Each of those feelings is a little bit different, but I would say for the most part they're equally strong. If I had to put it into just a few moments, I would say for the most part, I feel the spirit the strongest when I am testifying if my Savior Jesus Christ, of His chosen prophet in these latter-days, Joseph Smith, and of the Book of Mormon: Another Testament of Jesus Christ. Because those are eternal truths, and one of the roles of the Holy Ghost is to testify of truth. The most poignant moments are when I have the opportunity to look a person in the eye and tell them that even if they won't accept the truth as truth, it will continue to be truth, and it does continue to be truth. I have told people, as pressed upon by the Spirit of God, that there will come a day when the Bible simply will not be sufficient, and they will remember this conversation and my words, and know, once and for all, that my words were complete and utter truth from God. I think those have been the moments of my mission where the Spirit is the strongest.
5. I don't think there's been even a week of my mission that hasn't included at least a moment of feeling "down". I'm sure it happens to all missionaries (all people for that matter) but I feel especially susceptible to moments of negativity because I simply am not a very positive, happy type of person. But what helps me is saying a prayer and reading my Book of Mormon, usually Jacob 5, 2 Nephi 4, or Alma 26. Those are my go-to pick-me-up chapters. Quite often I turn to those pages in my Spanish Book of Mormon and then I am able to feel better God's love for me and rekindle the fire of my faith and the hope of my salvation--and that of those around me. Of course the scriptures done have ALL the answers to our personal lives, but I know that when we want God to speak with us, we should open our scriptures to show Him that we really are listening.

Well, I was going to start by saying that this week was super good and I'm not sure why, but if I really think about it, it's easy to see why I feel so good: we've been talking to everyone! And although I know it's what we're supposed to be doing, and I know that it makes me happy, it's always so hard. But once I've done it a few days, it's not so hard! In fact, I love it! We have met some of the greatest people this week, and I can't say that they're progressing toward baptism right this very minute but I know the seed has been planted. And because we talked to everyone and were being diligent with our time, I know we found the reason we needed to be in that specific area at that specific time. So that was amazing.

Also, our investigator Gloria told us this week that she'd like to be baptized! Unfortunately, we weren't able to put her on date, but I know this week we will. We really just need to talk with her about how she has to come to church in order to be baptized--that's part of the promise you make at baptism after all. I think then she'll really want to come to church (she still hasn't come...) So we're fighting the very powers of hell here, but where aren't we? It's just amazing to know that we truly are on the Lord's errand and the moment we do His work in His way, we see miracles. Daily. There is no question in my mind that this is His work and His glory, and as I recently "ponderized", it truly is my glory and my joy that perhaps I may be an instrument in His hands to brig some soul to repentance (Alma 29:9).

I also came to the realization this week that I only have approximately 19 more weeks as a full-time missionary. And I think, as terrifying as that statement of fact is, remembering that was exactly the push I needed. Because yes I'm exhausted and tired and sore all the time, but the time has already flown by. And I know it'll only go faster as the end gets closer. And I don't want to have any more regrets when the end comes. So I'm going to work as hard as I possibly can, and as smart as I possibly can, to utilize this precious time that I've been given.

Unfortunately, I can't remember the other cool/inspiring things that happened and that I learned, but I guess that's one reason we're supposed to keep a journal! We had a zone activity today so I don't have a ton of time to write. But know I love you and to everyone who reads this, directly or indirectly, know that you have a loving Father in Heaven who is aware of you and your needs. You are His child. And there is absolutely nothing you or anyone else can do that will every change that. He wants you to return to Him, and has provided the perfect plan to achieve that; now it's up to you. He believes in you. If He didn't, He wouldn't have sent His Son to be your Savior. The Gospel is true, and it's the only way for us to have our families with us for the eternities. And though it may seem like an impossible standard to live up to, it's really quite simple: there are only five steps. I know you can do it.

Love, Hermana DeBuck


Fotos:

1. Our landlord/branch president pulled this nasty out of our bathtub drain. All the Hermanas that have lived in this house...left this treasure.

2. My sweet companion made breakfast one day! So cute!

3. We helped out a recent convert; they've been putting siding on their house and had to tear everything off first. They had three days to put all the trash in this giant dumpster and the three of us got it done in about two hours!

4. Pardon my posture, but here is me, modeling the latest in apron styles...haha

5. We found the coolest chairs the other day! We knocked on the lady's door and she told us all about them--she even said we can sit on them if we want!

Week 58: In Case of Lightning, Avoid Power Tootles

5 Questions:
1) I know you don't want to think about it, but do you REALLY know when you are coming home?  I saw on Maddie Giles' blog post this past week she has a release date.  I'm just curious if you know yours.
2) Can you make a list of "church" words in Spanish that I could learn so I have the words to use for help with some of our little Latina ladies in the temple?  I can't just Google-translate some of those things.
3) When are you thinking you want the winter stuff sent?  It's been so warm here, I don't want to burden you with them too early, but I don't want you to freeze without it when you DO need it.
4) Any change in the investigator pool in Rochelle?

1. Well, I mean, I don't know anything official, but the transfer I should be going home, hypothetically, is March 3. So exactly 18 months from my report date. So, March 3 will be my flight back to Utah and hopefully you'll be there to pick me up.
2. Um, yes. I will compile a list... (where do I begin...?)
3. If you will just send it to the mission office so that it gets here by the 23rd, that would be perfect. Then I'll get it at transfers (or someone will bring it with them) which is the following Tuesday. That would be perfect I think.
4. Not particularly. We're down to about three solid investigators, but the struggle is getting any of them to come to church. But, poco a poco, we're getting there. I hope.

Unfortunately, I don't have a ton of time this week. We have an appointment at 5 in a town about twenty minutes away. So, my companion is a doll and is letting me copy her email for the week. Sorry, but this is about as good as it's gonna get this week. Here's what she said:

"This week we got TiWis. Some of you know what that is but for those who don't, it's a driving decide that tells how we are driving. If we speed, drive to aggressively, driving without seatbelts so it is a good thing Hna DeBuck and I were already driving safely! But we had those installed this week during zone conference which means, we had to be there at 7 am. That was a little killer. But that is okay!

My hand got shut in the window this last week. Thankfully nothing happened, it was more surprising than anything. I stuck my hand out again today and my mind started freaking out. I had totally  forgotten about it until that moment. Silly brain.

Also we have had some fun with this gross bug. We found out it is a house centipede, but it's fast and scary looking! We've had two of them now! Gross...

We have also been teaching this really awesome couple. Man are they so prepared. They have had interactions with missionaries for about a year and a half by now and every time we teach them, I just wonder why they aren't baptized! Their prayers are just so sincere and simple! It's so sweet.

It has been such a good week! I can't even use words. One thing I loved was that the relief society had an activity on the atonement, and it was truly amazing! It was a little funny because one of the
speakers is a counselor so it was kind of a free therapy session, but it was good and I took so many notes. I learned a lot of things and have learned to love the scripture Ether 12:27 even more. Truly no
words. I hope everyone has had a good week and stay safe this coming week!"

The Gospel is true and it is the only way for us to be with our families forever! Our responsibility as missionaries and members of the Church of Jesus Christ is to help people qualify for that divine blessing! I love you all.

Love, Hermana DeBuck

Fotos:
1. Take a gander at this here house centipede. Isn't it quite disgusting? I killed it at 6:20 this morning. No one should be required to murder small insects at that time of day...

2. Illinois sunset. I will never get over how lovely they are.

3. Two of the people I had the privilege of teaching in my last area (Bloomingdale) were baptized this weekend! I wasn't able to attend--I did get to call and talk to them though--but I stole a picture from Hermana Hunsaker. (Thanks!) (: This couple was recently married and is planning on going to the temple in a year--I will definitely be there for that!

 

4. Here's the after-effects of my stepping on a nail--and this was after washing out my shoe twice! Ah well. It'll forever be a weird shade of faded red....haha and just so everyone knows, I did get a tetanus shot before I reported as a missionary, so I'm totally fine.

5. Some things never change, one of which is my grammar Nazi side. This sign just kills me....haha love it.

Sent from my iPad

Week 57: "(I Cooked)"

First off, to all my Hermanas reading this: I love you. Okay? Okay.  Now, other items.

5 Questions:
1) Did you get to watch all the sessions of conference?
2) Did any investigators come to watch too?
3) What were your overall feelings about conference?
4) Did you have a favorite talk?
5) What did you learn in conference that will immediately help you in your calling as a missionary?

1. Yes, we did watch all the sessions. However, we watched both morning sessions in Spanish with our one Spanish speaking Hermana who came. It made me realize just how much my Spanish ability has grown over the past year. When i first arrived in the field I could speak Spanish pretty well but understanding what was being said was such a struggle for me. But now, I feel like I not only understand the gist of what is said but I also get a lot of the details. Granted, it helps that they talked about gospel related things because my "worldly" vocabulary leaves something to be desired... But anyway. Yes we watched all the sessions (minus priesthood session of course) and oh boy was it amazing. Exactly what I needed.
2. Unfortunately we had no investigators there. Two were planning on coming but then didn't so we're thinking they may have had to work. And then two told us they might come if their already-made-plans fell through--but they didn't fall through. Ah well. Next week, someone will be at church. I'm going to do all I can to get people there and THEN hand it over to the Lord.
3. Overall feelings about conference? How do you sum up eight hours of a spiritual marathon? I don't think it's possible.... But I suppose if I were to put it into just a few words, it would be this: I know that God is so aware of each and every one of us, particularly me. But I know He doesn't love me anymore than He loves you, whoever you may be, reading this. I know He hears and answers our prayers, but He answers them in His way and in His time. If we are too focused on doing things our way, then we will surely miss the answers and blessings He is trying to give us. The two biggest obstacles of life--death and sin--have been taken care of, through the Atonement of Jesus Christ. The next biggest obstacle keeping you from reaching your eternal potential is you. But if you will let God direct you, if you will give your will to Him, He will make far more of you than you could ever make of yourself. So the questions that remains to be asked is this: will you let Him?
4. My favorite talk was President Uchtdorf's from the Saturday morning session. Now, I honestly can't tell you why it was my favorite other than the fact that it was exactly what I needed to hear in the moment that I needed to hear it. Perhaps it was simply because it was the first talk of this semiannual general conference, because all I really needed to know was that God was aware of me, that my Father in Heaven was thinking of me, looking out for me. And from the very moment that President Uchtdorf began speaking, I knew He was there. And that was the only thing I needed to know then.
5. Again, how do you expect me to sum that up? Well, I'll begin with my notes from the talk by Elder Bradley D. Foster. Near the beginning of his talk, he said something to the effect of "Children are just like really young investigators". The very first thought I had from the Spirit was "If children = investigators, investigators = children." So literally everything He said is applicable to missionary work. I loved his example of Helen Keller. Although she was majorly impaired, she was still able to learn--but her teacher had to figure out how to teach her so that she would be able to learn. The way I see it, some of our investigators (the people we teach who are investigating the church) may be more like Helen Keller than a child who can see and hear. Not because they are impaired, but simply because we, as their teachers, have to figure out how they learn so that we can teach to their needs. Some of the people we teach need more guidance while others may come to their own conclusion of what is the truth with us only teaching the doctrine of truth. But however a person may learn, it doesn't matter. Because "it is never too early and never too late to begin the process". As their teachers, we want them to trust us and know that they can come to us with doubts and concerns they may have. We may not be able to answer every question right away, but we know that the restored Gospel of Jesus Christ has all the answers. We also don't want to be too much a part of their lives, but we do want them to know that we are on their side. And when it really comes down to it, it doesn't matter when we're ready to teach; what matters is when they're ready to learn.

Mom Note:  Our friends are serving as mission president and "first lady" of the Athens, Greece Mission, and "first lady" LeeAnn had written to me to ask about something Jill's Mission President is doing with the Chicago West missionaries that they call the activity "Fit for the Kingdom".  She asked about it, so I had told Jill I shared that info:
In response to the question from LeeAnn about Fit for the Kingdom, literally all I know is what is contained in that newsletter. Maybe I'll hear something more this week at zone training but I don't know. Sorry I can't be of more help.

Also, at zone training, our cars will be getting a TiWi system which will help our mission be a little safer. So that's gonna be fun!

As for this last week, let's just say it was really stressful and really funny all at the same time. Here is a brief summary of the not-so-spiritual points of my week:

• we left a note on every single door of a house because we're not exactly sure if someone actually lives there. We'll go back this week and see if anything has changed
• we taught the friend of our investigator and her name is Rita but she goes by the nickname "Guera". For all you gringos, that basically means "white girl". Based on the color of her skin, you'd never guess she's Latina, but she is. Hence, the nickname. (Also, Guera and Gloria both added us on Facebook. We're totally gonna be best buds for life.) (: Also, our investigator was totally doing missionary work, telling her friend that she should read the Book of Mormon. She's the best.
• On Wednesday we did our weekly planning and to begin we asked Heavenly Father to PLEASE help us finish in the time we had, and he did. Final time: 2 hours and 15 mins. All 13 steps. #likeaboss
• We met the cutest old lady this week--named Eva--who didn't want to let us in at first because we weren't from her church but then she did and basically begged to give us coffee or tea. (we said no thanks, in case you're wondering.) So she gave us a granola bar instead. Then, at the end of the lesson, when we asked her to read the Book of Mormon, she exclaimed (I literally mean "exclaimed") "Of course!" She's the cutest abuelita of all time.
• One of our members has been totally AWOL for a week or two now and we haven't been able to contact her. But then we just happened to tract into her daughter, so we found out she's just been playing grandma for a niece who was having a baby--in Kansas.
• Because we awkwardly waited for a man to get out of his car, we were able to teach him about the Book of Mormon (he was pretty excited to read it) and then he gave us each a tamale! (Best day ever! Well, maybe not EVER, but it was pretty awesome...)
• We were asked to give a training in district meeting on preaching the gospel two by two, particularly in door approaches. Man, I don't know what we said but I know we said what the Spirit wanted. It was awesome.
• We prayerfully sought which member we could ask to go with us to an appointment and we found the perfect Amulek for this couple we're teaching--we can't wait for the Brother to go with us too. Also, this couple, in response to the baptismal invitation, said, "We hadn't really thought about that." But then you could just tell that they were definitely thinking about it then. They didn't commit to anything in that very moment but I know they will soon. They are so prepared--they met the missionaries about a year ago and had known missionaries before that--and we are totally going to get them baptized and on the path to eternal life. I love them.
• Had one of the greatest finding lessons of all time this week--I could just feel the Spirit guiding my words and then testifying to them of my words. If they accept our invitation to invite someone to be taught in their home (after praying about whom to invite) I know they'll see miracles.
• We were tracting late at night (about 8:30) and found a young man who basically asked us if he could come to church. We weren't able to teach him much but I have a feeling that the Elders will be able to help him progress quickly and soon.
• I got my flu shot and the pharmacist who shot us was the most funny person with a needle I think I've ever met. It was awesome. When she asked us about if we were pregnant or planning on getting pregnant she said, "I know, with the whole mission thing, but I have to ask." So funny.
• we reached our member present lesson goal for the week--the first day of the week. And then, by the end, we had exceeded it. Heavenly Father is so good to us.
• Elder Renlund, one of the newly called Apostles, was totally in our mission just last month for a mission tour. And he basically told us the same things then that he shared at Conference. So cool. (I am SO excited for these three new Apostles. They're going to be amazing servants of the Lord, as I'm sure they already were.)
• one of our members gave us an early Christmas gift: she knits/crochets (?) and made us both ear headband things and scarves. Oh my goodness she is so good to us. (She asked us if we've ever been to a session of general conference and how we get tickets, and one thing led to another, and I told her she can go with me next Conference since I'll be home. She said okay.)
• Took a member to a lesson and she totally asked for a referral for us--and we got one! "Ask and ye shall receive..."
• for dinner one day we had mac n' cheese and cheese-covered cauliflower. It was so delicious.
• We met an elderly couple who told us right away they weren't interested and, when we asked if we could just give them a card with a picture of Jesus on it, the hermana said, "Where's Mary?!" almost at the top of her lungs. It was probably a good thing I didn't have time to say "In Jerusalem" before they closed the door. They made our day.
• we talked to a couple of people standing on their porch (about the wind chimes hanging) which led to them asking us about this crazy greenhouse light that illuminates the entire sky when there are clouds and then we were able to give them both a card. They were really nice. The man said that anytime he sees missionaries, especially during the summer, he always gives them a water. On behalf of all the missionaries in Illinois, thank you!
• We sent a reminder text to our new investigator couple between sessions on Sunday and at some point during the afternoon session, this was the response we got (which took up five text messages): "Thank you for reminding us!!well we left Freeport at 2:10pm and heading home but weren't sure were to get something to eat!! So when we got to the outside skirts of Rockford we decided to go home!! Poor Ida she is dead tired! After you guys left she beginning getting all her stuff ready for the sale today from 8am till 2pm!! But she didn't finished till 2:30am and we had to get up at 5:30am! Since she wouldn't get up i slept till 6am and then we were rushing to eat breakfast (I cooked) and loading the truck with 5 big bags of Tupperware and 4 small bags and we get there at 8:40 am! But I think we will both be going to sleep very shortly!! Good nite! Jose & Ida!" This text message literally made my entire week about 18 times better. All day Sunday we would crack up, laughing, because this was just so perfect. Love this couple.

So that's that. And then I just wanted to share a "brief" summary of what I learned from conference this weekend and last. I wrote out about a one sentence summary of what I learned either directly from the speaker or through the Spirit. I hope and pray that something that I learned will be beneficial to someone else who reads this. I know that our Heavenly Father loves us and wants to help us, but He usually does so through the people around us.

• Live life (including mission life) one day at a time.
• Doing what God wants gives us the strength and power to face any and all trials.
• I am a part of the cause of Christ. I am bringing people to Him and it is my responsibility to be prepared to receive all the blessings God wants to give me--including eternal marriage.
• Don't dwell on the sad and disappointing things. Look for the good and then focus on it!
• Starting with where you're at now (now where you used to be), look at your life with an eternal perspective and then simplify. It is then you'll be able to become the person you want to be and God wants you to be.
• Be loyal to Christ and all His chosen servants (prophets, apostles, stake presidents, bishops, mission presidents, zone and district leaders, etc.)
• If we want to make our lives something of value, we must center our lives on Jesus Christ, the Master Crafter.
• If there is something "ungood" you're holding on to, it will inhibit you from spiritually progressing if you don't let it go--this includes wanting to do things your way instead of Christ's way.
• I must be humble enough to ask "What lack I yet?" and then faithful enough to change and act according to the response.
• True repentance--true change-- requires consistent diligence in each and every step toward eternal life.
• I must learn to exercise self-control now, as a missionary, in order to be better prepared for whatever curve balls may come after.
• The choices I'm making now are shaping my eternal destiny; I need to be the kind of person I want to marry.
• Although our "nature" may not change, our heart CAN change, and I'm doing better than I think I am.
• The people who sincerely investigate the Church may be compared to children: they're all at different levels but all are capable of learning the truth for themselves (if they want it bad enough and are willing to work for it.)
• Even if I'm stressed or depressed, if I smile, I'll be able to help those who are more stressed or depressed because I have the Gospel of Jesus Christ and a smile. (:
• Sometimes we take on challenges and realize we weren't as ready as we thought, but as we hold fast to the light of Christ, He will sustain us through any and all darkness.
• My motivation as a missionary can't be the equivalent of an investigator's curiosity--it must be pure and simple love; if it's not quite there right now, I can feel to sing the song of redeeming love again as I "bear with patience [mine] afflictions" and turn to the Lord.
• Death and sin are not the only challenges of mortality, but Christ's Atonement covers all that--and everything else.
• Does it really matter where you serve? You can find people to help and teach no matter where you are!
• My call came from Jesus Christ Himself.
• Sometimes we may receive callings or assignments we don't feel qualified to fulfill but remember: the Lord qualifies those whom He calls.
• We cannot fulfill our baptismal covenant unless we learn to see others through God's eyes.
• My job is to keep the vision God has for me at the forefront of my mind, and then to help others do the same. When others lose sight of it, I will be there to comfort them and then to help them remember too.
• Those who cannot withstand the mocking of the world while on the path to eternal life will fall away and then join the mockers and the nay-sayers.
• As we always remember Him, we will be better able to act like Him; it is then that we will have His Spirit to be with us--both literally (because of our baptismal covenant) and figuratively (because we are living like Him).
• It is very possible to have the Spirit with us always, not just occasionally, if we live worthy of it.
• All roads lead to immortality, it's true, but not all roads lead exaltation.
• Don't be deterred; hard can be good!
• There may be times when I will ask if there's no other way, but if I will just keep moving forward, obediently, one step at a time, one day it will end, and one day I'll be exalted with Christ.
• Trust that everything God does is for MY good.
• Things of eternal significance are rarely easy.
• Some followed Christ "for a season" and then "walked with Him no more". I will NOT do that. I will always center my life on Jesus Christ, even after the name tag comes off.
• I need to look for what I can learn from each test and trial, for each has purpose and meaning--I just have to find it.
• God does not spare His chosen servants from afflictions--rather He strengthens them in the midst of them--that includes me.

I'm excited to take on the challenge to "ponderize" a verse of scripture each week for the next 20 years. I'm excited to develop the attributes of a believer and better represent my Savior Jesus Christ. I'm excited to testify of the First Vision and all that followed it, for I know it to be eternal truth. I'm excited for the challenges ahead, for I know that I truly can do all things through Christ which strengtheneth me (see Philippians 4:13 and Alma 26:12). I'm excited to stand as a witness of God at all times, even and especially when it's hard. I'm excited for this life on earth and for all the opportunities that are provided me by a loving Father in Heaven. I love Him. I serve Him. And I invite each of you to ponder how you can better serve Him, and then do it.

Con Todo Mi Amor,
Tu Hija, Hermana y Amiga,
Hermana DeBuck

Fotos:

We've been trying to catch a family at home that is SUPER busy, but they have three labs that are super friendly, so we took a picture with one. He just wanted to shake my hand. (:

 

Us with our tamales from Jose! Best free food ever.

Two apples, demonstrating the size of my mouth versus the size of Hermana Henricksen's mouth.

 

We were told by our branch president's wife yesterday that McDonald's is now selling breakfast all day. I cannot tell you how much that made my day. Like, for real. I was literally almost crying. No joke. So, here we are, Monday morning, after 10 am, with our breakfast food from McDonald's. Oh what a joyous moment it was.

 So we live right next to some train tracks right? Well, this is what was driving (?) by this morning: John Deere tractors up the wazoo.